I carefully unfolded the stiff yellowed paper, incredulous that I was actually touching a letter written during the American Civil War. It was one of 150 letters written between my that I had discovered in a small wooden box in my mother's attic in Suffern, New York. The note I held in my hand, authored by Private Charles McDowell to his wife Nancy, was written on a small, plain piece of stationery—not at all fancy like some of the others in the batch, which bore sketches of the White House and battle engagements. I gently smoothed it flat on the table afraid I would tear it.
The handwriting was strange, the ink somewhat faded, making it difficult to read. And then suddenly I came upon a word I recognized in an instant—Abe! It read, "We have [Secretary of State] Seward down here about every other day, and sometimes he fetches Old Abe with him and [he] looks about like any old farmer."
In addition to the letters was Nancy's obituary, which reads: "MRS. MCDOWELL IS DEAD—SHOOK HANDS WITH LINCOLN. With the death of Mrs. Nancy Wager McDowell...the town of Sodus probably loses the distinction of having a resident who could boast of having shaken hands and talked with the martyred Lincoln… Mr. McDowell was a member of the Ninth New York Heavy Artillery in the Union Army and it was while stationed near Washington that his wife had an opportunity to speak with the President. Mrs. McDowell passed nearly a year in that vicinity and many were the pies she baked for the soldiers stationed at the capital. Typhoid Fever caused her to return to Alton to the home of her parents…" ("The Record," Sodus, Wayne County, N.Y. September 18, 1931.)
I took the collection of letters back to my home and began what was to become
an exciting ten-year adventure. First I arranged the letters from Charles by date and began to read. Once I grew accustomed to his old-style handwriting and run-on sentences, I felt myself leaving the present and entering his past. I traveled back over 130 years and joined Charles in heart and mind. I felt his loneliness, his boredom, his fear. I laughed when he found a reason to laugh.
He and his brother had enlisted despite his Canadian father's pleas to stay out of the war. As the months of his service turned into years, I hurt over his deep longing for his wife and home and for the life and family he left behind in Canada.
In other letters I was shocked to read of the desertions, hangings, amputations, prostitution, and even theft and murder among Union troops. Charles wrote home about the battles he fought with the 2nd CT Heavy Artillery and other regiments who were members of the Sixth Corps.
Next I tackled Nancy’s writing. As her collection of letters drew to an end, I was completely immersed in her anxious thoughts about Charles's welfare. She hoped there hadn't been a "ball made to kill" him. She hoped he wouldn't get too close to the Southern women when he occupied their homes. She longed for him to return to her--even if it was just for a short furlough. She wrote that she would rather be dead than continue to live the way they were.
I pondered the final years of her life spent rocking in her chair looking out the window. She died in that chair beside the window. Perhaps she was awaiting her death so Charles could come for her once more…
The letters, along with my background research are compiled in my book, Ever True: A Union Private and His Wife.
And now, for the first time in Connecticut, their love letters are being presented in my play Ever True: A Civil War Love Story.
Ever True: A Civil War Love Story.
Valentine's Day (Feb 14, 2012, 6:30 p.m.)
Through the actual love letters of Private Charles McDowell and his 17-year-old wife, Nancy, you will not only hear of dreams, desertions and disease, but of hangings and the court marshalling of a cow. This dinner theater production of Ever True includes an introduction by the play's author, Lisa Saunders, who will remain after the show to answer any questions. Presented by the Emerson Theater
Collaborative at the RiverWalk Restaurant in Mystic, CT, you may purchase tickets by calling (860) 705-9711. Show tickets are $25 and the dinner, which is paid for at the restaurant on the night of the show, is an additional $30 (plus tax and tip). Seating is limited and tickets will not be sold at the door.